On a completely superficial note, I want to keep track of the things I will investigate buying when I reach my goal weight. I say investigate, because for once I'm going to pay extra attention to quality and fit, and not buy anything that doesn't live up to my standards. I follow a few great fashion blogs and have always really loved fashion, but I've had to take a hiatus because I don't want to waste money on 20 different sizes. Making this post and updating it from time to time will help me keep track of the basics I'll need to restock my wardrobe fast!
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
D8P5: Couch to 5k and Community
I took a break from workouts this weekend to go on a vacay with the Hubster. We celebrated another anniversary and it was lovely. Although I planned to do a run on Saturday morning, I ended up skipping it and so I've decided to do another week 1 of the couch to 5k program just to be on the extra thorough side. What I'm most proud of myself for is that I did not go overboard on vacation, despite the strong inclination I have to do so. I ordered sensible vegetarian (though not vegan, to my detriment quesadillas left me feeling super gassy) meals, and I stuck to decent though not as small as usual portion sizes.
Community has been my sticking point these last few days.
Community has been my sticking point these last few days.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
D3P4: moments
Just watched a tv show with a woman running and having a really difficult time with it. It made me feel euphoric. For some reason, the amazing feeling of running has gotten under my skin and seeing someone do it, even having a hard time of it, makes me want to run. Although I have not had the best day for healthy eating (had two small pieces of cake for a birthday party after lunch) it is great for motivation and exercise!
Random side note: I even feel a bit of a creative reawakening. Maybe it's time to get back to my art.
Random side note: I even feel a bit of a creative reawakening. Maybe it's time to get back to my art.
D3P3: Couch to 5k and Pistachios
Day two of couch to 5k, I thought it was going to be terrible because I had a fight with hubster this morning and was in a bad mood and I was too sleepy to get out of bed early for it. It wasn't too bad though, actually much of the same, with the added benefit of being slightly easier because I'd done it before. Same route, 2.2 miles.
Where do the pistachios come in? Last night! I had resolved not to bring pistachios in the house because they are one of the foods that I get carried away with (despite being on the healthy end of the foods I get carried away with scale). But last night I was STARVING after work (weird because I did have lunch) and so when I met the hubster at our grocery I picked up what I thought would be a healthy snack...ok who are we kidding I was in full on binge mode...
Where do the pistachios come in? Last night! I had resolved not to bring pistachios in the house because they are one of the foods that I get carried away with (despite being on the healthy end of the foods I get carried away with scale). But last night I was STARVING after work (weird because I did have lunch) and so when I met the hubster at our grocery I picked up what I thought would be a healthy snack...ok who are we kidding I was in full on binge mode...
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
D2P2: Couch to 5k Update
Yesterday was my first experience of Couch to 5k. I downloaded a lovely podcast and set out in shoes that were not ideal. It was easy to begin with, and really really tough progressively as I went, but I kept thinking about how I rarely challenge myself physically, and how unhappy that makes me in the long run, and I pushed myself to keep going. I made it all the way to Tulare street, which is 1.1 miles from my house. And of course, I came back, which puts me at 2.2 miles for my very first run!
I wanted to change my strategy and do the first week for two weeks in a row, but maybe I should keep moving forward, instead of holding myself back...
I wanted to change my strategy and do the first week for two weeks in a row, but maybe I should keep moving forward, instead of holding myself back...
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
D1P1: It's time to get public...
But not too public...
Only a few people who know my true identity will have direct access to this blog, for everyone else I will be anonymous. Why? Because as much as I want to make my new healthier lifestyle public, I still prefer to be a private individual who just so happens to use the internet. So I've sent this website to only my husband and a few select close friends and family members.
Why am I doing this?
I've struggled with my weight for years, and I've struggled with my eating and exercise habits for as long. While I don't drink or do drugs or have any other serious health issues, I see how my eating and exercise habits will shorten my life and make it less pleasurable while I'm here. So I'm making one last attempt (and it's my last attempt because it will stick this time) to start treating myself better and feel better in the process.
Tools and the How:
Staying motivated is the name of the game. It turns out looking and feeling great is not enough. So I'll be using a variety of podcasts, books and workbooks, group and individual therapy, music, hypnosis, this and other blogs, and anything I can get my pretty little hands on to stay motivated and to rebound when I bounce off track. I'll talk more about the tools in later posts.
My goal?
I have a weight goal, like most people, but I also have a state of mind and body goal which is far more important to me in the long run. When I started this journey a few months ago I weighed 204 pounds and felt terrible about myself. Now I weigh 183 pounds and I feel much better. I hope to eventually stabilize at around 140 pounds.
More importantly, I want to feel happy, healthy, and comfortable in my own skin. I want to have lots of energy, not feel depressed, be fit enough to do lots of outdoorsy things without getting winded, feel sexy and attractive in my clothes (and out of them), be at peace around food, and feel motivated to stay moving and nourish my body with good healthy food and drink.
The Plan:
I will exercise approximately 4 days a week. 3 of those days will be the Couch to 5k program using the lovely podcast developed by a girl with similar music tastes to my own. The other day will be yoga, which has turned into both a spiritual and physical workout for me. At the end of Couch to 5k, I will add 2 days of resistance training at home (pull-ups, sit-ups, push-ups, etc) and start the 8k extender program. After that, who knows?
I have also switched to a mostly plant based diet. I'm trying to completely avoid meats and mostly avoid dairy. Also, I'm eliminating processed foods with very few exceptions. I am not counting calories, but I'm also trying to avoid going to bed stuffed, and binge eating when I'm stressed.
So in conclusion...
This is the last time for me. I'm done with the struggle. I'm done with the pain. I'm done with the embarrassment, shame, and guilt. This time, I'm going to be healthy, for good!
Only a few people who know my true identity will have direct access to this blog, for everyone else I will be anonymous. Why? Because as much as I want to make my new healthier lifestyle public, I still prefer to be a private individual who just so happens to use the internet. So I've sent this website to only my husband and a few select close friends and family members.
Why am I doing this?
I've struggled with my weight for years, and I've struggled with my eating and exercise habits for as long. While I don't drink or do drugs or have any other serious health issues, I see how my eating and exercise habits will shorten my life and make it less pleasurable while I'm here. So I'm making one last attempt (and it's my last attempt because it will stick this time) to start treating myself better and feel better in the process.
Tools and the How:
Staying motivated is the name of the game. It turns out looking and feeling great is not enough. So I'll be using a variety of podcasts, books and workbooks, group and individual therapy, music, hypnosis, this and other blogs, and anything I can get my pretty little hands on to stay motivated and to rebound when I bounce off track. I'll talk more about the tools in later posts.
My goal?
I have a weight goal, like most people, but I also have a state of mind and body goal which is far more important to me in the long run. When I started this journey a few months ago I weighed 204 pounds and felt terrible about myself. Now I weigh 183 pounds and I feel much better. I hope to eventually stabilize at around 140 pounds.
More importantly, I want to feel happy, healthy, and comfortable in my own skin. I want to have lots of energy, not feel depressed, be fit enough to do lots of outdoorsy things without getting winded, feel sexy and attractive in my clothes (and out of them), be at peace around food, and feel motivated to stay moving and nourish my body with good healthy food and drink.
The Plan:
I will exercise approximately 4 days a week. 3 of those days will be the Couch to 5k program using the lovely podcast developed by a girl with similar music tastes to my own. The other day will be yoga, which has turned into both a spiritual and physical workout for me. At the end of Couch to 5k, I will add 2 days of resistance training at home (pull-ups, sit-ups, push-ups, etc) and start the 8k extender program. After that, who knows?
I have also switched to a mostly plant based diet. I'm trying to completely avoid meats and mostly avoid dairy. Also, I'm eliminating processed foods with very few exceptions. I am not counting calories, but I'm also trying to avoid going to bed stuffed, and binge eating when I'm stressed.
So in conclusion...
This is the last time for me. I'm done with the struggle. I'm done with the pain. I'm done with the embarrassment, shame, and guilt. This time, I'm going to be healthy, for good!
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